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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2005|05:06 pm]
Maddy
hey,
so i'm settling into hopkins life. its kind of cool to just walk around campus and 1) see some friends you just met the night before and 2)have even more people introduce themselves to you and talk about the going ons of the day. the freshmen class has been moving in herds lately and its funny to watch it travel across the quads- anxiously and excitedly to see dan adhoot perform, a comedian from last comic standing, grumpily and sleepily to a mandatory ethics lecture at 9AM, pepped and jumpy to playfair, an activity that is so crazy and hyper that it can't be explained, and i can only imagine the atmosphere tonight when we venture over to "the sexcapades", a 3 hour show talking about "alcohol and sex. sex and alcohol." apparently seats fill up quickly with this one, so we're encouraged to get there early.
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2005|02:15 am]
Maddy
fact: i've listened to al green's "let's stay together" far too many times since wednesday night.


i just hope that at some point in everyone's life they will be lucky enough to experience what i am experiencing.
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2005|12:55 am]
Maddy
we layed together on a hot summers night in your car. my curfew had passed hours ago but i couldn't bring myself to say the words "we have to go."
relaxed, comfortable, and swelling with happiness.
you held me, and sang to me the words of al green "let's stay together"
your voice, husky and untrained, soothed me, moved my heart in a way it had never moved before
i closed my eyes and thought about the wonderful man that was by my side.
i realized that i was so incredibly lucky that i found this man- this man who was unafraid of declaring his love and whose entire being instills in me a sense of happiness and ease.
i sat there thinking about how lucky i am.

i thought about how i wanted everyone at some point in their life to experience what i am experiencing and to love as purely as we do.
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this has to go somewhere so i don't forget any of it [Aug. 5th, 2005|11:20 am]
Maddy
so basically brian&i are the coolest/chillest/hippest/most cultured couple ever.
i pick brian up at approximately 11:36.
we pause in the croton-harmon train parking lot for a brief couple minutes. :)
we leave the car in time and are able to make our train.
on the train we eat our sandwiches.
we arrive in nyc at 1:20 a bit lost and unsure of how to get to the museum.
we ask some cops.
they laugh at me when i say "the met" but they are helpful.
they tell us the met is up a couple blocks and then 40 blocks in the other directions.
we begin treading by foot.
it's a long walk and it's bloody hot out but we walk it.
we only stop at a really ritzy store to relieve ourselves with air conditioning.
oh, and we also take a break to drink our orangeade in central park. beautiful atmosphere.
it takes us about 1 1/2 travel time to reach the met. we arrive at 3:00.
we walk around and look at modern art first.
brian finds a group that are speaking spanish and he half listens to them as they tour.
i teach brian what i know about art history.
we walk around a bit more through different areas and our last area is arms and armor, for brian.
it's bloody boring but i try to get excited about seeing metal.
we are kicked out of the met at 5:15 for no reason other than it was closing.
on the stoops of the met, two black men are dancing/entertaining us for money.
we become intrigued and stop and watch.
they jump a lot and are cool.
i give them a dollar and brian calls me a "sucker" for that.
we start walking again and unfortunately the nearest subway isn't that near.
we ask for directions and eventually find it.
on the subway brian starts singing "my my metrocard"- a le tigre song.
we take the subway to 23rd st and walk to 24th where the ny comedy club is.
we stop and get two slices of pizza each.
brian drinks a gallon of water.
we are very aware of our hydration.
we are at the comedy club by 7:15.
they tell us the box office woman is not there at the moment but will be in 45 minutes.
the area is less than exciting and we are at a loss of what to do at the moment so we impulsively take a cab to greenwich village.
we are looking for cafe dante (a recommendation of my dads) but we don't know the address.
the cabbie tells us he'll let us off right on bleeker and we'll find it.
we walk less than 10 feet and it is right in front of us.
the area is bustling with life, filled with little shops and restaurants.
we enter cafe dante and the first thing we do is pee.
brian knocks on my bathroom door before i am done, and when i do open the door he rushes himself inside with me.
we eventually return to the table and order ice chocolatoes.
they were yummy and we left by 8:00.
we left ourselves 20 minutes to explore before we would head back to where ny comedy club was.
during our exploring time, we see comedy cellar, the original club we had tried to go to.
we ask if their sold out and yes they were.
but there was a wait list we could put our names on.
we said no no, and walked into multiple bong shops within 50 ft of eachother.
we decide to call ny comedy club and ask if their sold out.
they are.
and so we put ourselves on the comedy cellar wait list.
by this time it is 8:20.
we sit on the curb as we wait for 9:00.
the guy from boiling points walks by!
then brian takes to biting me, but i distract him by games like 20 questions, and the name game, and the name of the state game.
we get off the wait list and go inside!
it was the most exciting thing evver.
we sit down and brian orders a pineapple juice and i order a coke.
the show starts.
it's very funny.
we order nachos too.
the show ends with the guy from best week ever!
the show doesn't end until 11:00.
we walk around greenwich village afterwards, amazed to realize all these shops are still open.
i try on sunglasses even ridiculous pairs and brian tells me they look awesome.
boyfriends are a terrible judge of fashion.
we walk around until 11:50 and we find ourselves sitting on a curb again cuz we're tired.
we finally become aware of the time and the fact that brian works in the morning so he shouldn't get home too late.
we decide to try to make the 12:20 train home.
brian is negative, but i know we have to try.
i ask a woman where the nearest subway is.
she tells me she's going there herself and we can walk with her.
on a somewhat awkward conversation begins but we get to the subway.
we have to ask a fellow how to get to grand central but he is helpful and we know which track to get on.
we wait from 12:00 to 12:08 and we are very nervous.
we get on the subway but we only ahve two stops and we are off the subway by 12:14.
we are still blocks from grand central but i decide we should just run for it.
i begin running and without question, brian begins to run also.
i am quickly lacking speed but brian is helpful and doesn't let me give up.
the exit from the subway seems forever, a long unending white tunnel.
we emerge from underground and the cool air is refreshing.
we run three long blocks and i am giving up.
my flip flops are making that annoying sound on the pavement.
i can see grand central, and the lights to cross the road are in our favor.
they change at the most convienant moment.
i tell brian to run ahead to find out what track our train is on and that i'm right behind him.
"track 27! we're on track 27!"
we never stop running.
we arrive at track 27 and the train is still there.
brian reaches to get in the first door and but it is locked.
a man sees us frantic and he shouts "the door where the light is!"
my body hates me at the moment, but i tell myself to keep going.
brian grabs my hand and pulls me.
we get into the train and find people sleeping, waking up to our sweaty and huffing selves.
i wonder if they realize that we ran there to catch this train.
we walk up and down aisles, my side aching with a cramp and just wanting to collapse on a seat but there are no seats available together.
i sit across a smelly man and brian sits across two sleeping girls.
we turn our bodies together and catch our breaths together.
brian is dripping with sweat and i bet so was i.
he is concerned with me, but i tell him i'm ok.
we talk about the day until a seat opens up and we sit down. well, lay down.
i rest my head on brians lap and close my eyes.
later we switch, and brian sleeps while i watch for the stops.
we get off at our stop and my body is aching and we still have a walk back to my car.
inside my car there is a delay and we don't leave right away.
i am almost out of gas and the entire journey was spent watching my gas indicitar change misleadingly from E to 1/4 tank to an 1/8 tank back to E and so forth.
but we got into cornwall without running out of gas. (phew)

it really was a great day.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2005|01:36 pm]
Maddy
supermarket sweep!
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(no subject) [Jul. 13th, 2005|01:10 pm]
Maddy
i fell asleep in my lover's arms.

and then a long drive home.
i could still smell you and feel you.
you kept me awake with the thought of you.
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(no subject) [Jun. 23rd, 2005|01:55 pm]
Maddy
making up is the best.
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(no subject) [Jun. 16th, 2005|04:40 pm]
Maddy
so basically i really need a job.
i'm sort of employed at the double s cafe,
& i'm doing freelance work
for "frisbee's" mom, bettina but it's really not
enough. i've been doing some beading
for her jewelry shop, but at $3 a strand-
it's just money on the side, you know?

summer's started& a thunderstorm is beginning outside.
kind of exciting.
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2005|01:01 am]
Maddy
Now, I'm gonna love you
Till the heavens stop the rain
I'm gonna love you
Till the stars fall from the sky for you and I
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but i don't want him, no i've got my man [Jun. 2nd, 2005|05:37 pm]
Maddy
oh boy,
even though i'm rappin' to g-unit's [bow down]
"in da club"
i've had joss stone's "young at heart"
stuck in my head for days now.

basically, there are enough high school days
left to complete that i can count
themonmyfingers.
it's hella weird,
but prom is tomorrow,
&it's gonna rooooock.
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&there's this moth outside my kitchen door, she's just bonkers for that bare bulb [May. 22nd, 2005|11:01 pm]
Maddy
so tomorrow my brother's going out to LA for just about the
entire summer (!!!!)
and so today was
family bonding day
&i was tied down at the house, but i found a free minute
&made a necessary visit. i also purchased a birthday
card three days late but wrote an essay inside it and almost made my mother cry.

the best thing about being locked inside the house is being
productive and auctually doing assigned homework
and finally being home to watch evening television, namely 'desperate housewives.'
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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2005|01:14 pm]
Maddy
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:madster
Birthday:december 22, 1986
Birthplace:po-town, ny
Current Location:c-o-h, ny
Eye Color:green
Hair Color:light brownish, blonde
Height:5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed:righty
Your Heritage:ukranian/french/irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:i've been sans shoes thus far
Your Weakness:last minute kisses
Your Fears:failing
Your Perfect Pizza:just plain, baby
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:heading to JHU&being studious&happy
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:lol?
Thoughts First Waking Up:can i sleep longer?
Your Best Physical Feature:
Your Bedtime:weekdays: 11:30, weekends: 2ish
Your Most Missed Memory:i guess being a kid without responsibilities
Pepsi or Coke:pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:wendys
Single or Group Dates:single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:i don't like iced tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla icecream, chocolate everything else
Cappuccino or Coffee:i don't drink coffee
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear:yeah
Do you Sing:too often
Do you Shower Daily:for the most part
Have you Been in Love:yes
Do you want to go to College:yeah, JHU in the fall
Do you want to get Married:someday
Do you belive in yourself:mmmmhm
Do you get Motion Sickness:it happens
Do you think you are Attractive:
Are you a Health Freak:i wish i could say i was but no
Do you get along with your Parents:there are times we do&there are times we don't
Do you like Thunderstorms:strangely soothing
Do you play an Instrument:no, used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yeah
In the past month have you Smoked:nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:yessire
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yup, lol, there's a funny story that goes along w/that but can't be shared ;D
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:never done that
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:never! can you believe it?
In the past month have you been on Stage:negative
In the past month have you been Dumped:no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:no
Ever been Drunk:mmmmhm
Ever been called a Tease:lol yeah
Ever been Beaten up:no lol
Ever Shoplifted:no
How do you want to Die:satisfied
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:museum curator?......mmm, & happy
What country would you most like to Visit:too many to name. everywhere.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:it all doesn't matter but just for kicks, brown.
Favourite Hair Color:it all doesn't matter but just for kicks, brown.
Short or Long Hair:it all doesn't matter but just for kicks, shortish but still long enough to grab.
Height:taller?
Weight:healthy?
Best Clothing Style:
Number of Drugs I have taken:oh dear
Number of CDs I own:i couldn't answer if i wanted to.
Number of Piercings:2
Number of Tattoos:0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:mmmmm, being that i'm really happy at the moment, i want to say none.

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2005|11:25 am]
Maddy
so monday was spent in washington d.c. with two of my favorite gals,
cheryl and meg, walking around, "liberated".
we had anticipated going up to d.c. for the women's march,
but our day was equally enjoyable by walking around braless,
lounging down by the washinton monument, and taking full advantage
of the fact that the smithsonian museums are free.

i can't even begin to describe the rest of the great four-day weekend.
thursday night was spent simply in a car, down by the river, but i've
soaked up those words and i'll never forget that night and that moonlight.
friday night there was a house sans parents and we took full advantage
of that oppurtunity and had a time that defintley beats all "barn parties."
an intimate get-together combined with alcohol is defintley the way to go
especially when it ends with squeezing together on the top of the bunk
at the end of it all, whispering, and realizing that your boyfriend likes your
friends, and how much easier it all makes it. oh, and realizing your friends
like your boyfriend also (even, reeeally like him, lol), thats comforting as well.
i could continue with recalling it all, and it does all make me smile,
but i won't.
the AP calculus exam is tuesday, and i'm hardly prepared.

catch ya on the rebound!
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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2005|07:09 pm]
Maddy
memory:
my feet on yours,,
slowdancing,
singing annie lennox "no more i love you's",
in the computer room,
well after your "kickout time."
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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2005|04:40 pm]
Maddy
i know we all know it
but saying goodbye is never easy

and it really doesn't get easier
no matter how many times you're forced to say it.



zut, i burned my tongue on chicken noodle soup this afternoon.
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(no subject) [Apr. 10th, 2005|07:07 pm]
Maddy
i think i spent a total of 15 awake minutes in my own house yesterday;
i'm lovin' being a host to chloe, and i'm lovin' entertaining
laurice, and marine and antony. it's all great fun:
long hikes with deep conversation, and deck loungings eating
amazing mud pie, and rushing through the mall for a long awaited cigarette
break, and a should-be-somewhat-awkward-evening-because-of-all-who-were-there
party turned out a great evening, and pool halls in shady parts of town, and weirs trips with too much icecream for small french frames, and walking
the trestle with too much rain&wind in the face, and lounging at storm king
art center being somewhat cultured but really just laying in the grass
on a hot summerlike day playing cards and 'monkey in the middle' and getting
a sunburn, and adding french music to my ipod and loving it,
and not doing any homework, and laughing in the car despite language barriers, and french kids belting "born to be wild" after a car skid, and universal appreciation of johnny depp and all perverted jokes that follow [solely because of laurice], and playing endangered species which kids of all languages can enjoy because it involves [harmless] violence, and discussing cultural eating habits over pizza and soda, and walking a lot,
and laughing a lot,
and learning a lot.
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2005|01:04 am]
Maddy
i know i have to be brave,,
just breathe,
and
live.
^minus the "i" & replace with an "o"
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2005|12:48 am]
Maddy
today was a mixture of emotions
that are difficult to describe
but i'll do my best.

the weather was beautiful and who can argue with
that? now really. we walked and we talked. and we
held eachother and we did crossword puzzles and we
ate greasy pizza and you held my jacket and we laughed
and we teased and read jeffrey mcdaniel outloud
to eachother by the river and we laid together and enjoyed
eachothers silence. we met up with my friends to watch
a movie and you sat by my side with my friends
and you listened to our giggling
and our goofy behavior. you grabbed my hand and
held it tightly when we discussed college,
and the inevitible fact that
things
will
change.





i know i have to be brave,
and just enjoy
the time that is
left.
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2005|10:59 pm]
Maddy
i have to say i am a bit jealous of those people who know which school they're going to and know exactly what they want to study complete with a life long plan of how to accomplish
it all.
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mmmhm. [Mar. 13th, 2005|09:56 pm]
Maddy
sunday:
- a springlike walk to lunch
- 3+ hours in barnes and nobles
- one oversized couch with two close bodies
- reading "the vagina monologues" cover to cover with the opposite sex
- hot chocolate indulgences plus apple purses
- getting hit on by a 6th grade scientist/mack daddy
- finding a "quiet" place in the childrens section of b&n
- napping by the river and wanting time to slow the f down
- overanalyzing, candid and should-be-awkward conversations
- angered wendys employees
- you
and
- NOT studying for the AP calc test
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